Summer school has started and I feel as though I am going through the same motions again. There isn’t that many people at summer school but still more than last year which means that finding some solitude isn’t going to work out the way I planned. Currently I have successfully moved into my temp home until the lease is open in august in which I must move once more. I feel calm though, the prospect of moving isn’t as bad since I haven’t really unpacked my stuff in this place. It feels a little like home already, as though I had been living here for so long. It must be the motion.

I am without my laptop and I have found that this separation is something that I cannot take. It amazes me how much technology affects my life. Why I wouldn’t even be able to write a blog on tumblr if I didn’t have access to an iPad, or my phone. Everything is connected nowadays and I find that thought quite revolutionarily ordinary. Like I don’t really care much about it when I have my laptop and am spending hours on it doing the most mundane things, and out of habituation, I get so bored. Now deprived of such a gift and I realize how drab it can be without it and how much my creativity has been sequestered in its presence. There is time now to read a book, and time to talk for awhile. There is time to go to the supermarket, the next block where my friend lives. How come there wasn’t this much time before? Has my dependency on technology gotten this deeply engrained? Of course I may think all of this now but soon, and I know soon enough, once my beloved laptop return to me, there will be no more time because I will once again be sucked into the world of multitasking and the world of fastness. And I wouldn’t even notice it.